Love

It's that time of the year again. February is here and everyone knows what that means. Valentine's Day and being single. 

In this post, I am gonna get real transparent with y'all. Because it is on my heart to do so.

I have never had a Valentine during this month. And it used to bother me but it doesn't anymore. In high school and middle school, all of my friends used to get gifts and I didn't. It used to upset me. I would see them post cute photos with their bae's and I didn't have one.

This year I thought it would be different. In August, there was a guy that was interested in me and I was interested in him back but I guess things didn't work out. We tried to make it work. We really did but we both were so busy with everything. And then he decided that he didn't want a relationship and then I didn't want one and then he wanted one and then I wanted one and then he didn't want one.

You see, I really liked him and I thought it was gonna work and we were gonna be great together but God and life had different plans. I have known him for 3 years and we were really good friends. We worked really well together. And I don't hate him for anything. I was mad but I can never really hate him or not be his friend.

Then there was this other guy. We both liked each other but I didn't know it until recently. And it sucks because he lives 3-4 hours away. I have known him for 3 years too. We met at the same place as the other guy. Our friends thought that we were and should be in a relationship. My friendship is different with this guy. Our friendship is based on fighting. We met and started talking while fighting. We fought every time we were together but we didn't mean it. It was our way of flirting. We did have deep conversations too.

So again this year, I am not gonna have a Valentine. And I am okay with that. I do have someone that loves me though and that is never gonna change. God loves me and I love him. He can be my Valentine.

I am going to cherish these single Valentine's Days and they will be extra special when I get married. When I get married, I will have a forever Valentine.

This year, I am going to do something that I saw on Twitter. I am going to go to the store and buy a tie for my future husband. I am going to hang it next to my bed where I can see it and I am going to pray over it. I am going to pray for my future husband and for God to keep him safe. This tie will be given to him on our wedding. I will also give him letters that I have wrote to him throughout the years. Before and after I have met him.

God will never leave us. He is always there for us.

John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only begotten Son so whosoever believes in Him shall not parish but have everlasting life."

God loved us so much that He gave His son to die on the cross for our sins. Isn't that amazing? Do you love someone enough to do that for them? I know that I don't really.

We are told that there are 4 different types of love in the bible. They are Stroge, Eros, Philos, and Agape.

Before I start talking about the different types of love, let me ask you a question. What is love?

Love is according to Wikipedia,

A a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes that ranges from interpersonal affection to pleasure. It can refer to an emotion of a strong attraction and personal attachment.

Storge love is familiar or affectionate love. This is the love that families have for each other.
Eros love is romantic love. This is the love that people in relationships have for each other.
Philos love is friendship love. This is the love that friends have for each other.
Agape love is spiritual love. This is the love that God has for us.

Agape love is never failing. And it is amazing love. This is the most important love that we should have. This love should come first.

Love is talked about throughout the bible. Love is not a bad thing except when it is the wrong type of love. We are called to love each other with respect. I know that I have a hard time loving people. And when I do, I turn to the bible.

God's love is everlasting. It never changes. No matter how far away we get. We can leave Him for earthly pleasures and He will never quit loving us. People's love will fail us. They will leave us and make us heartbroken but God will never. God is always there for us.

We should run to him with our broken hearts. Because His love will help us.

Below is one of my favorite verses in the bible that talks about love. It is 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8; 13

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 

And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love.  

I'm amazed by God's love for us. I don't really deserve it. Even if nobody else loves me, I know that He does. He will always love me.

So this year for Valentine's Day, I am gonna spend it with my family and Netflix. I am also going to spend it with my FOF family.

Dear God, I know that you are saving me for someone special and it is hard. But I want to thank you for your love. You love me even if I don't love myself and when I am not loveable and that is often. Your love is amazing and reaches to the end of the earth. You sent your son to die on the cross for our sins knowing that we may not accept you. If that is not love, then I don't know what is. God I just want to thank you for my life and the people in it. I want to thank you for my FOF family. I don't know what I would do withouth them. God, I know that you placed them in my life for a reason. I may not know it yet, but I know that it is to glorify you. God, I want to thank you for the experiences I had with those two guys. I may not have dated them but you placed them in my life and I am so thankful for that. God I pray for my future husband. I pray that he gets to know you and your love for hi, I know that you will show him to me in your right timing. God I love you so much. And I thank you for my life. I know that you have me single during this season for a reason. I don't know what it is but you will show me. Amen.  

I hope that you all have a wonderful Valentine's Day and remember that God loves you and will never forsake you.

To end this blog post I just want to post this song called "Amazing Love" by Chris Tomlin

Here is another video by Guy Penrod that is really good.